The second day after submission and the feeling is fantastic. This term was a nightmare throughout these 3 years in DID. We rant and we complaints, we cried and we laughed, all the pains and sorrows were over. Stayed in school everyday till late night, sometimes too tired that we need to cab home. We made it and we completed what we need to do with our bare hands. Some models were brought to workshop outside for cutting and some were done by banglas. This is all the unhappiness especially when we were there doing it ourselves. It isnt easy because those woods are really heavy. One day after another, we became weaker and weaker. From the first day we had all our energy to carry those loads to the day we could really grab something. Nevertheless, the group of friends have been a great help in this project. Humans are born selfish and I wouldnt deny I'm not. But from this project, you can really spot who are the friends who will stay by your side no matter how much they still have to do and willing to help you. I know this project wouldnt be completed if I'm working alone so I thanks all the people who had helped me!

I know I'm a sensitive person which sometimes make me think alot. But to me, this world is too complicated that I cannot do anything. I want to understand everyone around me, understand who is really there for me. i dont want to be someone who is not appreciated in the crowd and not knowing. I will leave if that isnt a place for me and I am more than willing to stay if im welcome. Therefore, I think and yes I think alot. However, throughout so many situations I know who are the ones who really understand me and I would say  there isnt much. Not even friends that I have know for 8 years. And I concluded that everyone is selfish because they only think of themselves first.

But, I have learn to let go. People stay and go. There isnt a way or a reason for me to stop them. Some are selfish in a way that they only think about themselves. Whatever they are unhappy with, the fault will lies on you. No matter how much you have helped them, no matter how you have been treating them. They do not see it. What they see is themselves as the right one and you, the one who have made a mistake and out you go!
And some, they only stay when they need you. They priorities what is important to them. If you are not their top priorities, uh-oh! wait for your turn then. However, you do not have to do anything because they will come to you when it is the time they need you.

Life goes on! and what we need to do is not to let these people affect your life. I'm glad that I still have a bunch of friends that are willing to share my tears and joy. last but not least. Someone who will never judge me for who I am. My bf <3 nbsp="nbsp" p="p">

This week's weekend shopping trip was failed somehow but its okay, we spent quality time with his brother who is flying back to Australia tonight sadly. This bro of his is easy- going and sometimes I really joke with him like I have know him for long. I have always yearning for a elder brother and yup. I have been treated him like my brother. Time flies. I remember the last time I met him was half year ago then he came back for 2 weeks and today he is flying back again. No idea when he's coming back but he said should be another 1 year plus or so. Yea.. we will miss you dearly!

Its a Sunday night, the night that I miss baby the most. After spending two days together, it's the time i miss him the most.

Okay! Let it be just a short post as I'm too sleepy right now. Haven been doing any work so here I am, going to bed and not care about anything! :)

Before I get back to work, I want to rant for awhile.

I seriously hate the life I'm having and hate the surroundings I am in. Yes, the world is competitive and realistic. This is how we were shaped. But this is not the life I want to be. In this world, what you need is a cert (a piece of paper) and money. You can have everything you want with this 2 items. 'No money no talk'. This is so true. So what about going university? Do you learn more things if you studied more? Yes to an extent and for some courses. But what about design? It's all about experiences. I dont want to further my studies is because I cannot learn as much compared to working. Our projects are getting more and more useless. When everyone is doing the same thing using the 'formula' steps, wasting resources, wasting money, wasting time and creating unnecessary disagreements. Are these worth it?

Seriously, I dont like to be competitive. I'm never a competitive person in nature. But I have been shaped to become one. Because I clearly know that being competitive will make you better in terms of result. It is proven. Yes, I know it is not about result. Everyone said its about the process. Enjoying the process. But without scoring well, can you enjoy? When you got an A for your result, will you feel unhappy? An A makes everything worth it. Because of moderation, everyone becomes competitive.

However, other than all those, there is 3 person I want to thank the most in these few weeks. And they are my mum, my dear bf, Angela and Aaron. In terms of studies, Angela and Aaron have helped me alot. Without them, I wouldnt have worked so fast and catch up with the pace. Redo-ing everything is not an easy task. And yes, I will help you guys when I could. We can do it, even if we are doing it ALONE. Just 3 more weeks. For mum and bf, they are my motivation. The one who listens to all my rantings and encourage me whenever I'm not feeling good. They shower me with love and make me feel that life is not a total of darkness. Thankyou!