Critique is over and I'm not happy about it. I was nervous and I realise there's a lot of careless mistakes in my floor plans. After so many changes here and there, my section was in a mess. Was kinda disappointed this time round. Comments gotten has good and bad points but the result of getting A is quite far from it. Nevertheless, its over.

Wednesday has come to an end. The deadline of telling raymond about wanting presidency is over. It was something I have been wanting and considering about for the past few months. yes, I have the thought of opting for a few months. I dont have the confident that I will be but I want to try to give a change. This year was bad and mainly the reason came from our own main comm. How are we going to lead a club when the core are not bonded as a whole. I couldnt say that I will really make a change next year.

I know myself that I have not socialize well with the year1s but i can say that I can work well with them. You guys must be wondering what's troubling me these few days. Yes, that someone has break all these thoughts that i have with just little actions he does. With the bad names, with the bad reputation and the bad things you have spread, there isnt any respect from them for me anymore. Thank you for that. You might have your reason for doing so but here I am to tell you this, it hurts me badly. Right now, I dont care who you are and I dont wish to know who you are. At least without knowing, I treat everyone as my friend. And when I know who this person is, I wont do anything. But I will draw a line in between us.

I know that I shouldnt give up so easily, I know by doing this I'm just letting you getting whatever you yearning for. But yeah who cares. I dont want history to repeat. I dont want people who is working with you not respecting you and you dont know about it. Club will still be the same like this year.

I admit that I have been straight forward or being mean recently. This might be the reason why you are doing this. But let me tell you, I have regretted it. If I have been mean to you, you deserve it. Throughout this year, I have been unhappy with people's working style. They are just irresponsible. I feel bad for people working under them. They are showing bad examples to their juniors and this shouldnt be the way. They are being irresponsible for what they chosen, it is to become part of main comm. If you cant, dont take it.!

Right now with that matter, I'm helpless. There's nothing I can do but to say goodbye to this club. I'm so attached to it that I have been breaking down at times when I think about it. I'm thankful for the seniors that you guys had made a wonderful place for us. A place where we wish to continue staying and making it better. However, I can say that it was ruined in our hands, I'm sorry. Club is no longer the place that you guys have built out.

Though this photo you dont look good, but I find it quite cute

We have been through so many camps

When we were still 'young'

We have sweat together

There are bad times

But it didnt break us

We are still good friends

HAPPY BIRTHDAY STEPHANIE! :)

This is the second birthday of yours after we know each other.

A strong and determine girl who make me motivated in my work as we often chiong our work together. You are a really a good friend of mine. Parents often worried about their children meeting bad companies. And yes mum, this is a friend whom will never let me go astray. Being a great help these 2 years in design course and here I wish you all the best in your life, studies and your relationship. Didnt get to celebrate your bday with you today and we shall make the shopping trip as your bday celebration:)

p.s: You said about you are old on your blog. Dont worry, there's an old lady turning 20 this year :(

Studio M Hotel is fantastic. A place where we wish to have it in the future. It was a post-valentine's day gift deardear had gave to me. Though it was planned together, he was the one who paid for it! Thank you so much. It was planned as a holiday for the both of us but before checking in, we decided to ask more people to join us. And yes, we called jx and treacious. Both of them couldnt enjoy fully because of their submissions. However, they did their work and enjoy it at the same time! It was short but we spent it fruitfully. They were a pair of cute couple and brought lots of laughter for us.

After one night spending together there are so many thoughts about these people. Firstly treacious, a junior of mine whom we are starting to get closer. I felt that she belongs to the same world of mine and I believe we can get along well. Will get to know you better!

Followed by JX, he has been a wonderful friend throughout these 2 years. We have never hide anything from each other and I feel comfortable to tell him about my stuff. Thanks for always being there when I needed a listening ear. You are like a brother to me:)

Lastly my deardear liming. There are so many things to say about how good you have treated me. The one who understand me the most. The one who is always there supporting me. The one who always put me as his priority. The one whom I care and love the most. The one whom I named it as 'my one and only'.. Thanks for you love, thanks for staying in life and thanks for everything. I love you and always will <3

There isnt any mood for work today therefore it wasnt productive enough. These two days while looking through facebook, everyone was posting about valentine's day. Sadly, I'm facing my laptop from day to night just doing 3dsmax and autocad. Feeling a little sad that I couldnt spend this day with my dear. We have not celebrate a valentine's day although we have past 2 years of it. But, it doesnt matter. Every weekends shall be our valentine's day:) Miss you extremely much!

Happy advance valentines day to everyone on earth.

After thinking back, I realized I have been celebrating valentines day every year, be it whether I'm single or attach. Many of you will say that it's just another day people celebrate together, another festival of the year and etc. However, I'm one who likes to celebrate these festival. I agree it's just another normal day but I just like the atmosphere when everyone is giving their blessings and celebrating with their close ones. It's the mood that is enjoyable. Sadly for this year, I'm gonna stay at home on this special day. My dear needs to celebrate his valentines day in camp. :( It's okkk, we still have next year, next next year and many many more year to celebrate it! My secondary school friends were all drifted, we no longer get together like how we used to be. I remember how we spent this day together. We buy chocolates and lollipops for each other! I still remember we went out with a clique of 13-15 people but right now, we only left with 3. Everyone has their own life but i really miss those times. Sadly, for my secondary school friends, we only have 3 ppl in our clique. And i believe, these 2 people have their another half to spend their time with<3<3. Certainly, these are the 2 that do not like to celebrate these festivals! Hmm.. nehmind~ I shall make good use of these 2 days, staying at home and finish my work, leaving my precious weekends to the one I wish to see the most! Every weekends will be our valentine!

Tuesday - finish 3dsmax and rendering

wednesday- finish autocad and walkthrough

thursday- printing all tshirts and presentation boards!

Dedicate to the one I love to spend my time with!

Cny is coming to an end soon. Although people nowadays dont really celebrate it, my cny really lasts for a total of 15 days. We enjoy the 15 days of Cny to the fullest. Personally, I felt that cny has loss it's meaning. It's no longer about giving blessings to one another. To me, it has become gambling sessions. Everywhere i go, every house I visited, I never failed to gamble. Blackjack, mahjong, whatever cards game, i'm always there. Money in and out, happy of winning and heartache of losing. But who cares, I had fun. This year was a little different. It was the first time I bring my boyfriend to my relatives. It was rather awkward for us as it was our first time. But after a few time, it was ok for us. This year, I have someone to spend my cny with <3 Too bad, he only gets to enjoy 3 days of it!

Because of cny, it leads me to a never ending workload. From the first day of this week, i have been clearing my work one module by another. Report and Tod essay was done before cny therefore there is only editing stuff left. TOD journal was the worse as I have been procrastinating about it. But fortunately, I manage finish it in a day! efficient much! Matech has always been a weekly work and i have done it. Just that there was a few exercises that was just uploaded recently. What's worrying is my IDS project. I guess most of us have been neglecting this for dont know what reason. But right now, I'm enjoying this project I'm having. Just that I felt quite stuck at this moment.

Deardear OCS parents visiting day. Look at this guy, he's always standing straight with his uniform! What's surprising is to see my mum and his parents in the photo! I was shocked when my mum said she wants to take a look at the environment there. And his mum was ok with my mum going. I was rather worried about the awkward moment when they met. However, everything goes smoothly when they met each other. I dont need to start any topic, they carry on with theirs. At times, they were on a conversation that I cannot join. That will be good if I have the same socializing skills as my mum.

Because of the 2 weeks of confinement he's having. I miss so much! These 2 weeks have been passing so slowly that I cannot wait for sat to arrive. Ever since he went ns, weekends became so precious to us. There are couples who needs to meet every day and luckily we are both not that kind of person. Meeting on weekends for a week is needed I guess. I used to be someone who will attend to everything. But right now, situation has changed. I really hope you guys can understand the situation I am in. I know my friends around me can understand but I know there will people who think likewise. These people are those who do not put himself in my shoe. They only think for themselves.

Lesson at 8am tomorrow, seoul garden with zhengwei and larry after that. Shall sleep now. Goodnight :)