Having a blast at USS yesterday as my parents didnt went there before. Because of the new ride , the transformer, it is very crowded there! Every rides we have to queue for quite some time. The most tiring one was obviously the transformer ride. We waited for more that 2hrs just for a ride. However, we felt that it is worthwhile! The animation was really damn cool. But, I was rather scare when I took the ride because it just felt so real. I realised that I became more and more timid as I grow up. I couldnt take the trill anymore. Compared to the last time I went USS, this time I couldnt enjoy the rides. However, my mum was much stronger than I am. She was so daring. Before the rides I'm still thinking if she should take because she has aged and it's been so long she took these rides. My poor dad cannot take these kind of trill and therefore, he didnt try any of the rides. It started to rain on our first ride. And here comes my flu. I have to enjoy myself while enjoying the fun there! Right now, I'm down with flu and fever which I felt so shag. Tomorrow is the prep camp for ice camp yet i'm sick... Bad timing!

That event was something I really want to do from the start but now I have another feeling for it. Why do you do something which you think will fail in the end. Everyone is not communicating, everyone is not putting their 100% into it. Sometimes I wonder is it a obligation for them to do this event. As a organising committee, I dont feel like one. We are not the one planning and doing it together. I know it's not easy to get everyone to work together. But I really dont see their excitement for it. Everything was pushed together and it's always so last minute. Prep camp, training camp, day 0 and actual camp are all packed together. All on a consecutive days. It's not about spending too many days to the event. But whether is it worth it for it. Right now, it's really a no. Why do I spent my whole week for a event which I don't think it will be a good one. What can I do when there isnt any planning parts for me. From an event team, I'm a nobody in the camp. Not because I dont commit to it. Just because they forgot to add me to the event page? Just because I didnt went for the meeting when i'm not notify? I'm just a helper with the name of oc. I wanted to withdraw from it but I cannot. It is my responsibility. My friends and my juniors are attending as ocs, gls, helpers and campers. We asked them to attend yet I'm withdrawing? I'm not going to do that. I'm going because of these people. I will leave with regrets...

Have you ever imagine about your 'dream house'? Yes I do.

I don't want to stay in this city. All we do is work and sleep. Everywhere we see tall buildings with busy roads. If I have the money, I want to own a beach at anywhere the world. Build my own house at the seaside and setup a cafe there. Lots of freedom and you do not have to worry about anything. All you need to worry is when tsunami came and visit you. I want to have my own house and stay with my love ones there. Own a yacht or just a boat and go onto the sea. Isnt it cool to stay on a beach? You can go for a suntanning to relax yourself. Go for a swim or diving when the weather is hot. Do some fishing when you are bored. surfboarding when you want some trill.

I'm not sleeping yet I'm dreaming! This is impossible and will never happen in my lifetime. I shall continue to picture it soon, in my dream!

Just some random thoughts!

Nights people.

Thanks for giving me the chance to love you and be loved.

No one will ever know how far we can last but I truly want to be with you, forever.

You are the one I want to be with & you are the one who help me understand what love really is.

Never had I said about forever love but, you had changed my thoughts of it.

Thanks for being there when I needed you the most

I can never find someone like you; someone who understands me so well.

You are irreplaceable..

Changes occur in our everyday life and change is constant. I have stopped looking back of the past, stop thinking about finding back the things I have lost. Because I know that it's meaningless by then. I'm satisfied with what I have now. People stay are people who do not judge on you, that's how you define your true friends. They might not like you at times but they stayed because they accepted you!