I can't change the angsty-ness in me. Whenever I'm stress at work or rushing for submission, I will throw temper at my love ones. And every single time when I know that I shouldnt do that, I just cannot control. I sincerely feel so bad about it. Today's critique was thumbs up! Getting compliments is what we urge for after few weeks of hard work. But my day doesnt goes smoothly after it. The only thing that is good is that an angel appears when I felt so helpless. We were taught how to use a software but there isn't a lecturer who can help me. And the worse thing is that the only teacher who know about it was on MC today! Fortunately, someone from AA came to our studio and I just approach her randomly. I need to solve it desperately! But problems came up one by one that really makes me go bonkers! I'm really sorry to make people worried about me. I hurt the one who cares about me the most and I also hurt myself at the same time. I'm so sorry. You have always been supporting me these periods and I really appreciate it. And now, it's the end of this term. I have finished all my submissions and here comes my holiday!

Please, no projects for the upcoming workshop! I have got no feel for doing any work right now! Photoshoot and shopping with Nah tmr! goodnight!:)

This post is dedicated to this reader who didnt stop stalking me! I thought she has stopped viewing my blog for a long time because there's a period of time when I stopped blogging. I was surprised when she mentioned my latest post today! Yes, she complained that I didnt mention her about missing her so this is the post for you alright!

Met up with her today as I got stuff to buy. Shopped for the whole night and yes we bought alot of stuff within that few hours.

She's a friend of mine whom I know her since sec1 and she was one of my closest friend during my secondary school life. I know that you will be thinking " am I not one right now". Hahahaa you are still my close friend alright. We didnt meet that often but I still feel comfortable going out with you. Among the group of friends I have, I guess you are one of them whom I met the most.

This is the girl whom I can confide to because she will never hide her opinions. She's classified in the same category as me which is " the money face". She was a fierce girl who nobody can stand her staring. But she's still the most gentle one among us. Although she was once a very materialistic girl, she had thought over it and changed her views towards money. ( I think this is the most successful thing she had done over the past 6 years! ) She always said that she's sweet but but please stop lying to yourself :x

Life will never be a bed of roses. Humans are the same. I'm glad that you have become more positive towards life. Do not care about what others said about you because what's more important is you know what you are doing! We can never stop someone from saying something so just let them say whatever they want. Dont take it to heart because you will never be happy like this. Whenever you need me, I will always be there for you :)

DB Architect? Norman foster?

Today Cindy called me up together with xiu zhen and she told us a news. I wonder if that is a good or a bad news to me. She told us that Norman Foster wanted 2 students for ITP and we were chosen for that. Norman Foster is a company in Shanghai and Cindy said that its a good opportunity for us. Now that I have 2 companies that she posted me to. She said if Norman Foster turns to be a 'go', she will put me there and take me out of db architect. 7 weeks at shanghai? Thats what stopping me. I'm going to be separated with my parents and dear bf. hmmm. If only i'm firm that i'm going to further study in design, I will definitely go. Sigh. Whenever i think about my future, I got so stress up. I need a direction, a firm one so that I can focus on it!

Taking a break from all the work I have to update my blog. Recently, I've been so lazy to blog. Sometimes I feel like ranting, sometimes i feel like sharing and sometimes i just feel like keeping everything to myself. Works have been piling up and i'm trying my best to get rid of it one by one. Trying my best not to do my work on the weekends so that I can have all my time spending the pig! TOD presentation is the biggest obstacle that we are trying to get rid of. We must finish it by tomorrow so that we can have time for other works. Today, cindy called and asked me if I have prepared my CV for itp. She's going to post me to DB architect for the interview. Need to do my portfolio soon! I don't know if it will be a good choice for me. Some people said that I wont be learning much things as it's a big company. But, all I want is to have friends to keep my accompany and done with it! I have started to wavered my thoughts of further studying in design. I judge my ability in this aspects. I cannot handle the stress at times and I'm always stuck with ideas. I dont know if i'm really fit to be a designer. I dont know if I should go for a stable job like accounting or just go for my interest which is design. Right now, I'm still deciding on it. But no matter what, I'm not giving up now. A high GPA is still what I'm aiming for. The only thing I know is that to get into Uni, the most important thing is the GPA. Therefore for every single module, I'm gonna neglect it. There isnt lesson tomorrow and i'm gonna make it productive. But but but.. I'm not gonna sacrifice my precious sleep! goodnight :)