The holiday that you have no work to worry about is finally here. However, I still felt uncomfortable when I dont have to worry about anything. Every saturday, I will wake at 11+ to watch the show I've been watching. But after the show, I will stay in my room and start doing my work. But now, I sat on the sofa without having to think about my work when watching tv. Its kinda weird. I dont want waste my holiday by rotting everyday although sometimes I do like the feeling of rotting. Boredom is killing me.

But I also wish, time passed slower :):)

I have decided not to delete this blog.

Today is not my day, I felt so unlucky throughout the whole day. I went to school for printing and decided to go for book binding at chinese garden. It was the shop that Stephanie did her book binding too. However, when we ask for book binding, the shop owner told us that there is only ring bind. WTH!! I guess she doesnt want to do book binding for a5 papers. We headed off to JP for metal ring binding because we felt that plastic binding is not very nice. After waiting for 20mins, we went back to collect and guess what? They bind the wrong side! The last page becomes the first one. They asked me to print again and doesnt charge me for wrong one. BUT BUT BUT, going back school is just so troublesome. They suggested that they cut away the side that they bind and see if its ok. It turns out to be ok for me. Just that the words are too close to the edge. After consideration, I decided to just get along with it. They didnt charge me for the binding as apology. Went home after that. I have been going home earlier and earlier which I'm not used to it. Walked home from interchange and~~~~~~ it started raining! (Y) what's wrong~

finally finally! Im having a holiday that I didnt have to think of any work! Im looking forward to rotting at home, watching tv and finding people to go out because of boredom! I really miss all these things. Please, dont let the time passed too fast. I want to enjoy soooo much! :)

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Down with fever because of my gum I guess..

How many more bad things will happen? Just let all happen on this day and mark it as what people call it valentines day.

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I'm sorry.. I lost control of myself again.

Tonight, I shall not go into facebook!

Woke up and felt that my gum hurts even more. I cant close my mouth because it seems that there's something stuck there. It hurts whenever I open or close my mouth. It even hurts when I swallow my saliva. I'm so worried for friday's critique because I cant really talk well right now. My mum told me to bear with the pain for a few days but its really hard. I cant control my tears because of the pain. I cant eat, I cant drink.. It's torturing!

Right now, I have to stop crying. I dont like myself crying but I just cant control. I'll be ok, everything will be ok.

I dont like blogging but I dont wanna spam my fb and irritate others. I woke up with my eyes swollen and my gum hurts like mad. I've got no idea why is it so. I told myself I have to get over what happen yesterday but it's hard. My tears still rolls down whenever I think about it. This is the time when my heart hurts terribly. What can I say, it's only hurt, hurt and hurt!

Sadness. Anger

Happy Valentine day!

All I can say is that this is the worse valentine day I've been through my whole entire life. Be it if I'm with my love ones or not. Suddenly, I felt the loneliness.

It is a normal day which people mark it as valentine day. A day to actually spend with your love ones, your bf/gf, your good friends or even family members. This day means to me because of the mood whereby people are celebrating it together in a day.

Today, I really feel like crying and I'm crying but there isn't any tears.

Sum up (Y)

Yesterday I brought everything for submission yet I don't feel that its submission day. Maybe this day came too fast, maybe this day was too tiring. All i felt was tired, I really need to sleep badly. On the way there, I was so paranoid that I keep thinking what else have I not bring. It should be a happy day for all of us but I just cant have that mood. My mood was dampen even more when I'm worried about something. Time passed soooo fast, our year one poly life is ending soon. Freshmen orientation was like few days ago. Nevertheless, the year was tiring but I've enjoyed pretty much. New life, new experience.

Despite of how sleepy everyone was, we continue with our plans. We were thinking about going home to sleep but there's something more important to do. Its worth it I think. My mum and bro were staring at me when I reached home. They were looking at how sleepy I am and seeing if I'm happy about the submission. I went into my room, looking at my bed and doing something crazy. I started rolling my my bed :X

Later on, my poly and sec friends are coming my house to bai nian. (excited!:)) mama didnt go to work because of this. Thx mama for going to the market so early to prepare food! Lets enjoy this 2 days! :)

FINALLY:)

Lets have a post before I prepare myself for the submission later.

Yes, I think everyone will be very happy because this day has finally come! This was only the first submission but this is the major one. Few weeks of insufficient sleep, finally we can sum up everything today. The past few weeks, we all have been sleeping for 2-3 hours per day. As we all know that this is crazy, this is unhealthy, this is impossible. We made it.

My parents were used to this after the second week. They no longer nag me to bed, they no longer ask me what time I'm gonna sleep. We had the same routine almost everyday. Left school at 10+, bathe, nap for 2 hours and start working till the next morning. There's no much of perseverance these few days. Waking up at 1+, feeling so sleepy but still have to wake up. Without the perseverance, I will be sleeping till the next day alrd. When I think of what to do for that day, I no longer care about my sleep. I used to think that I will work till the time when I still have 8hrs of sleep. We calculate our time till the next morning and do as much things at night.

Right now, I can feel that my body really needs to recharge. Last night I thought I could sleep early but end up I didnt even take my nap. Feeling so sleepy and tired but I'm still excited for the submission later on.

Although we complain and whine, we've actually used to this life we are having. And of course, what we are waiting for is the feeling we all have now; the feeling of accomplishment! Next, i cant wait to know my result (LOL) . I must achieve my target this time round! But before that, critique! :(:(

Lost

I'm lost

I'm speechless

I'm sad

I'm afraid

Things get so complicated

I'm really speechless, I dont know what to say anymore

It just doesn't feels right

Today was a fun day as I went back to BPGHS with some of my friends. Spent a long time talking to mrlim (art teacher). He didnt change, he's still as naggy as what he used to be in the past. We waited for him from 9+ to 2+ and finally I had my breakfast. The last meal I had was yesterday's lunch which is 12pm. From this, you can actualy know how hungry I was. Shops were mostly close due to the festival so we had newyork newyork. It's suppose to be a treat for mrlim but end up he paid the bill. $177+!

Went to my ahgong house carrying my laptop. Everytime, every year, as long as there's gathering, we will be gambling. But today before they start playing, I on my laptop and most of them was surprised by it. No one could actually understand why am I doing it. Personally, i'm so reluctant to do my work during festivals but there isnt a choice. I have to get it done by monday. What they said was , "get a life", " dont do, there's still time", "dont be so stress, just relax a little". After hearing all these, i felt rather pissed but I understand because they didnt actually know our school stuff.

My cousin bought her dog along and she's so cute. She stick to me wherever I go. The dog was so obedient and sticky which is so unlike from my dog. She lets you carry her, sit on your thighs when you sat down and she really likes cuddling around you. This is the type of dog which you wouldnt bear to leave her. While carrying her, it really brings back a lot of memories of my dog. I become very emotional and I hold back my tears. I really miss carrying my dog and play with him like what I always do.

My cousins came to my house for mahjong but there's a weird number of people playing. Therefore, we have to take turns which I dont like because that's so sian for me. My parents wanted me to sleep early tonight as tomorrow will be a long day for us. 3 places to go tomorrow which probably ends very late tomorrow. Now, i shall be a good girl and go to bed!

Goodnight people and have a happy chinese new year! :)

everything doesnt seems alright. i can feel it. I've got a bad feeling, a very very bad one.

Why is it today?

I'm so tired and sleepy. Yesterday reached home, took 2hrs of nap and I do my work all the way. After doing so much, there's still a lot left behind. I dont know why but I'm just so tired today. I'm sorry to my friends because I know that my mood wasnt good. We were told to finish everything by monday which means I have to think of my work while enjoying cny. Can I still enjoy it in the first place? I would rather my submission is before cny. I will push myself even harder and finish it so that I can enjoy my cny as much as I can. I'm really really really very tired right now. And, I've decided not to do anything today. I will skip my dinner and sleep after i post this!

I dont know why but it always falls on these days. Why? I'm so tired physically and mentally right now. I dont know what to do, I dont know what's wrong. Was it so important? Why dont you understand me a little? I know. I'm sorry!