This is not the right time to fall sick! My nose started to irritate me halfway through lesson yesterday. After I got home from school and meeting, I got no more energy for work. I feel so sleepy and tired that all I want is to sleep. I couldnt do anything. Therefore, I decided to sleep early and make the next day progressive. However, I could not sleep well. I can feel the dryness in my throat whenever I woke up. At the time when my alarm rang, I felt even more sick and so I decided not to go school. My mum came into my room and realized i'm having fever. Visit the doctor and got my medicine. Sigh! why is it happening at this time. My target was to finish my model by today. And now, it becomes so impossible. Sleep is the only thing I can do after medicine. Feel like a pig. Why am I so weak, why do I fall sick so frequently. Have been visiting the doctor so many times this year. This is not right!

I really want to apologise to my mum as I've been throwing temper at her recently. Though I still feel angry and pissed for what happen, I know I should not be like this. This is the second time since school reopen. Maybe he was right that i'm having too much stress. Today, I can really feel the stress. Yes, it's only the second week of school reopen, what stress can I get? All I wanted is to keep all my weekends and holidays free for work so that it will not be wasted. It is to spend wisely with him because we can hardly meet right now. I will try my best to work faster and finish it faster than what i have done. I have been a slow worker, no matter how early I start, I still couldnt finish it earlier. Redo and redo, doing more and more. But today, I got really pissed off and stress out when i know that I need to redo my horse for the third times. It's easy but time consuming. I can no longer waste my time on redoing my works. What's more, I couldnt rush my work and forsake the quality! I want good quality that allow me to gain confident to get A. Yes, I only want As! I need to work faster, work harder by spending the minimum time. The worst thing is that my body clock is so used to what i have in the holidays. I got so tired so early! Feeling so sick, I know I cant do any work anymore so i'm going to bed now! tomorrow will be a better day. I hope.

It's already second day of school and my engine has not started. I have the feeling for work but I laziness came to me when I'm doing. I don't want the same thing to happen last sem, I need to do well! I need to! I don't want to compete with anyone but you only get stronger during competition! Recently, the mindset of studying design is swaying here and there. I don't know if I should carry on. Not because i'm not interested or giving up but I fear for my future. This is not a stable job. It's either I go high up or going to the very bottom. Why must we fear so much for our future? Why must we fight so much for our life. I don't like this at all. But you only get happiness when you have a good future. This is the world that I'm brought up with. We enjoyed all the comfort here but at the same time, we need to work harder. Unlike other country, they are living in such a slow pace. They are happy but they do not enjoy what we enjoyed. This is just LIFE~

These few days I couldnt contact him because they were banned for using phone. Sigh. Days without meeting, days without seeing, days without talking and days without knowing. The feeling of waiting is so much terrible than being single. Being single, you do not have someone for you to wait, for you to worry and for you to love. Whereas, you can't stop thinking when you are waiting. I get so emotional at times but trust me, I will not give up because of this. Because, I'm waiting for someone who worth my time! Weekends became something that i look forward to everyday. I'm not the only one who is doing the waiting. It's unfair for me to say I'm the only one who is experiencing the feeling of waiting. I believe he's looking forward to his weekends too as it is the only time he gets his freedom!

I wanted it back so much but I know it's no longer with me

I can sense it long ago

After 7 days of hard work, I'm back to singapore. It was not as tired as what I thought it would be. We enjoyed all the 7 days at thailand and had so much fun! The people there were all shy, gentle and kind. They welcome us with their smile daily and never did they lose their temper. They were all living in a much slower pace than how is it in singapore. The village was so quiet and beautiful that we all enjoy. However, the mosquitoes is the only thing that i dislike about it. Though everyone said that they did not have any bites, I do have lots of it. There's even a swollen one on my foot the second day. My thigh, arms and toes were also bitten. I guess I've attracted all the mosquitoes from them.

We worked rather fast. Our timetable were set to finish the day work by 6pm but we only used half of the day. The villagers and volunteers were all shocked by our working speed. We were all competitive and workaholics. We rejected breaks that is given to us. All we wanted is finish as fast as we could. However, the villagers were kinda tired because they had never worked so fast before.

They were all so good that we keep taking photos with them on the last day. It's really hard for us to bid farewell with them after working together for 7 days. I nearly teared when our truck was leaving the villagers. Looking at how grateful they were, I felt so happy for it.

Because we got to finish work early, we went swimming at the hotel. We hardly get to swim without swimming costumes. Therefore, we were all so happy playing in the pool. We almost went shopping everyday though we said we dont shop so much. Changed money again and again till we really went broke. We reach singapore with no thai and sing dollars. The bargaining were so fun and addictive. Look at how the people lose to us in the bargaining (Y)!

I really had so much fun in the thai trip that I still could not forget about it and people there. Without my dear friends, I could not enjoy so much too. We had so much fun in the hotel, so much laughter on every rides and knowing each other more. But, I really miss my parents and my mridiot so much during the trip! I didnt regret of going this building trip!

Happy 1 year anniversary my dear♥

1 year is not really that long but there are too much memories of us in this whole year- the good ones and the bad ones. This is a relationship that I felt so real, so true and so loved. Thankyou for all you have done and always be there when i needed you the most!

School will be reopen in another 16 days, I can't wait for it to start and project brief thrown to us. I miss school, I miss my friends and I miss doing those irritating assignments. I have spent my holiday fruitfully, it's enough for me.

Chalet at kampung hut

Shopping with the girls

Rotting at home

Birthday celebrations

26/9-29/9 overseas trip to hongkong with parents

2/10-9/10 building trip to thailand

12/10-14/10 Chalet with the girls and sdc chalet

Packing and unpacking of luggage these few weeks and there's only 2 days interval after each trip. Busy much. Shall end it here. Gonna meet the Mr.Botak later on :P