This blog is so deaddddddddd! I'm so so so lazy to blog.

Recently, we are complaining how slack we were since the school reopen. Although we have work to do, the submission date was in 2 weeks time. This make me slow down my working pace. I don't like it this way because we will become lazier and it's really hard for us to start our 'motor'. When major project is thrown to us, that's when we suffer.

Sometimes I wanted to lock all my blog, tumblr or facebook if I can. I don't like to let others read about my stuff. Is is because whenever I'm emotional, I tend to spam lots of stuff. I'm afraid they might get irritated of it. Or even got the wrong idea of what I'm going to say. But sometimes, I really can't keep everything to myself anymore. That's why i blog or post.

There's really these changes aren't it? I really don't know is it just me. Maybe I'm just too sensitive. I really hate this side of me. I wanted to be happy, I wanted to stay positive and I wanted to explain for everything but I realised, I've lose control of it.

These few nights I've been quite emotional that I couldnt stand it anymore. I want to let all these stop here but can I?

I really dont know how to describe the feelings. Maybe it's a mixed feelings. Every words, every hugs, there's a weird emotional coming out from me. I feel like crying.

There's nothing happen but I just felt this way. I"ve tried but I've failed to overcome myself. I tears and I fell asleep last night.

I really need some help here but I couldnt tell anyone about it. Not really cant but I dont want.

I question myself but I can't answer. Nobody can.

Maybe it's time to let everything out, to myself, in my room, under my blanket, alone.

This is so familiar

Camp has ended and I really missed it. The 4 days past so quickly that I didnt have the chance to enjoy. Some thinks that the camp was awesome but we all know it wasnt. There's so much unhappiness in us that we didnt have the chance to say it out. I wish I have the guts to say out all my feelings but sadly, I dont have. I guess I care too much of the consequences or maybe I know how it will be ended with. It's not that I didnt try, perhaps I did. It just ended up being worse. There's so much to say but I couldnt bring it up with words. Gained and lost. This is what I experienced these few weeks.

I didnt enjoy but I felt that it was successful because campers really walk out with a smile:)

The past is the past. I will not think about it anymore but I will remember all these that happen.

My target for this Sem's GPA is just improve from the previous sem. I did improve but why am I not happy? After viewing it with Sam and angela today, I didnt felt happy for that. I think I can do better than that. On the other hand, i wasnt upset too because it hits my target.

I felt extremely happy that my friends did well this sem! I will catch up with you guys de! :)

For those who didnt do well, dont be too sad as long as you work hard :) wo men yi qi jiayou!

These few weeks have been going back to school. Went back to school everyday at 10am this week and I really need some slp:( Tomorrow is the day we pull in more campers again! Hmm! lets hope everything goes well:)

Although I have been going back to school everyday, i'm still ok with it. Rather than staying at home doing nothing, I want to spend it with my friends. No matter where we are!

The few of us are turning into housewives soon. What we have been doing and will be doing are printing shirts, ironing shirts, folding shirts, packing clubhouse, sewing dresses and going giant to buy stuff. We really had lots of fun doing all these although we got tons of whining!

Camp is getting nearer and nearer. I could remember few months back when we were still thinking what position we will be in the FOC. And here it is, the camp we have been planning is going to be execute in 3 days time! Excited much :):)

I wonder if things we have done are appreciated and I hope it do. We are helping and making everything happen. Please show some appreciation for it !

Something is wrong with my appetite these few days.

I've been eating lesser and lesser each day. I'm not someone who can eat a lot but to finish a meal, I'm able to finish it. But these few days, I cant finish a meal. The worse thing is that I can have just only 1 meal for a day. I felt hungry but I just got no appetite.

I've tried to control but I've failed.

I'm just too tired to do anything right now. So, I will be going to bed soon!

Hey yo!

Just came back from Sentosa and its a really last min outing.

Sentosa is a place I wouldnt get bored with. Provided everyone is in the spirit of playing.

This morning, we thought that we wouldnt have fun because of the weather. Its raining heavily when we reached vivo. However, the rain stopped when everyone was gathered. The number of people coming was rather disappointing but we continue with our plan. Wanted to get those inactive committees to be bonded with us. But those who really want them to come, they were not present. As usual, I get sunburn and injuries at the end of the day. I dont know why I'm always the reddest among the rest and I dont like it. People will be looking at my face and say, wah so red. Face, you are really attention seeker :X

See this? bruises all over it. Sigh.

Lastly, thanks steph for bringing your skates although it's really heavy. Appreciated :)