Sometimes I wanted to lock all my blog, tumblr or facebook if I can. I don't like to let others read about my stuff. Is is because whenever I'm emotional, I tend to spam lots of stuff. I'm afraid they might get irritated of it. Or even got the wrong idea of what I'm going to say. But sometimes, I really can't keep everything to myself anymore. That's why i blog or post.

There's really these changes aren't it? I really don't know is it just me. Maybe I'm just too sensitive. I really hate this side of me. I wanted to be happy, I wanted to stay positive and I wanted to explain for everything but I realised, I've lose control of it.

These few nights I've been quite emotional that I couldnt stand it anymore. I want to let all these stop here but can I?

I really dont know how to describe the feelings. Maybe it's a mixed feelings. Every words, every hugs, there's a weird emotional coming out from me. I feel like crying.

There's nothing happen but I just felt this way. I"ve tried but I've failed to overcome myself. I tears and I fell asleep last night.

I really need some help here but I couldnt tell anyone about it. Not really cant but I dont want.

I question myself but I can't answer. Nobody can.

Maybe it's time to let everything out, to myself, in my room, under my blanket, alone.