Submission is over and I cant wait for my critique to be over too! Critique on this coming tuesday and I'm all prepared for negative comments. There's nothing in this submission that I'm satisfied with. None! All the work were all rushed out. There isnt any quality work! SIGH!

The whole of last week I only slept 2-3hours per day. On the third day onward, I felt so shag and sleepy but when I decided to take a nap, I couldnt sleep at all. Whenever I took my nap, I will still be thinking and worried that i couldnt finish it on time. Every minute, every hour is so important to me. At the end, I managed to submit a full submission and of course I'm not happy about it. Like I said, nothing could really satisfied me!

Let the past be the past.. I cant wait for t2c to come! But before that, here's our 1 week of critique week.

Our payback for losing so much sleep ^^

However, that 1 week seems so short! The whole of 1 week was packed with activities already! It will be better if there isnt CRS and TOD lesson! :)

Tomorrow I'm going www with angela and gang. egggg-cited much :)))!

So many unwanted stress right now! I got confident in finishing the work I have to do but it's more than that. I want to do well, I want to do more than what I can! At least when I didnt do well, I know I've tried my best!

Today, I felt so tired and moody. Took out all my materials for model making but I got no feel at all! I cannot do it in this state, nothing good will comes out from it!

I feel so bad to spoil your plan right now! I'm really very sorry. I dont know what to do now...

Argh~!!!

Argh!! After hearing about you planning surprises to give me, I suddenly feel so happy and sad! Happy because you actually planned but sad because I couldnt meet you..

Back to blogging? Miss me? I know you guys definitely did! :p

First day of school, everything was still the same! sitting in class, wasting time just to wait for consultation! Have been slacking throughout the whole holiday and nothing was done! I know that I still have time to finish up everything but will I produce something good? Hmm.. everyone's progress was quite fast so right now, I must really start my engine! From the start of this project, everything seems slow to us. All the instructions and stuff were too brief and slow. Have been calculating my GPA since last term. In order to get a 3.8 at the end of year3, I need to get 3.9 and abv! WOW! That impossible for me as I know my limit. I really wonder what I will become when i grow up. Will I be a successful one? Career to me is something very important because that's what you need if you want to lead a good life. And so, here comes studies. Right now I'm still procrastinating, thinking that I can do more tomorrow and sleep early tonight. Can I?

Now, I'm feeling so sick. Have been coughing for the past few days and I'm having a headache right now. My parents keep asking me to drink some cough medicine but I refused. I didnt take my diet into consideration too. SPicy food, heaty stuff, cold drinks and etc. Serve me right for coughing like this? hahaha!

Mothers' day is over and half of my weekly allowance is gone! :(

Wanted to get my mum a present but because of the lizard that is hiding in my room, I didnt got the chance to buy it on sat. Sorry mum!

Lets me just update you with my life recently!

Hmmm.. to me, school has started for 3 weeks but design school hasnt. Although there are some assignments for us, we are still feeling quite slack. My weekends used to be the day I do my work so a chance to rest. But now, my weekends were spent enjoying my life, slacking and finding things to do. Last thursday, our major project has just started but the task is just take and print photos. It's a whole sem project and I'm looking forward to it :):)

Lizard! Oh yes. Friday night, that idiotic lizard dropped down from the ceiling and crawl underneath my bed. I couldnt find it after that. I wasnt afraid of lizards but I felt that it's disgusting and I dont want it to crawl around me when I'm sleeping!! So yea, the only way is to spam insecticide and close the door! My mum said that she will catch it for me the next day. Fortunately, my bro went for canoe camp and I got his room muahahha!

Received the news of the listing for main comm and yes I was posted to the comm I opted! #happy:)

Sat were spent cleaning the entire room and thanks mum for helping. I tidy up all the drawers I have in my room and neatly. BUT THE MAIN THING IS THE LIZARD!! It's no where to be found! I got no idea where can it go to. The worse scenario is that one day when I was digging my bag for something, and I dig out that lizard. OMG! Hmm.. was packing my wardrobe halfway and got tired so I dumped all the unfolded clothes on my bed. Papa wanted to go for shopping because the weather is really killing us! Decided to go marina square for dinner because that is the place we thought that it wasnt crowded. Going out with my parents is really good! Normally if I go out with them without objective, it will just purely window shopping. So yesterday, I targeted at some of the shops first and I lead the way :)! Shopping is always woman's stuff and the guy is always the one paying! Sooooo, yes! My papa is the one paying for both mine and my mum's expenses. He bought nothing! Wanted to buy similar watch with my mum but we decided not to. We only shopped for awhile because our main objective is just dinner. How can I go home without buying anything? HA HA HA! I'm sorry dad but I didnt get to shop with you guys that often! I brought them to topshop! Bought a dress and jacket and spent $100+. opps! My mum likes the dress and I like the jacket!! ;) There's so many restaurant at marina square and we had a hard time deciding. I suggested to dine at HK cafe because I think that suits their likings. I'm right! They signed up a membership card for me as they know that I always visit the restaurant.

Stayed up late because of the election. I shall not say much about it cos I'm not really interested. Everyone was so active at fb and twitter. So am i. Although I stayed up late, i wasnt really watching. Most of the time, my eyes were at my laptop. 5 years later when it's our turn to vote, I'm not interested about who to vote but how much I'm given $.$

We wanted to celebrate mothers' day in the morning but I couldnt wake up :X The time I woke up its already lunch so we decided to wait for my beloved brother to come home from camp. Papa was kinda lazy to travel so we have to think of places nearer for dining. There isnt much restaurant I could say. We ended up at swensens because most of the restaurants were having long queues. My bro and I shared the bills, treating it as a mothers' day gift. Papa wanted to pay but we refused. However, i felt heartache but nehmind~! Its worth it.

Hmm.. i guessed i have to stop here! Papa mama wo ai ni!! :):) my bro.... since I used his bed for these 2 days and he didnt say anything. Mian qiang yi xia bah! ♥

This blog is so deaddddddddd! I'm so so so lazy to blog.

Recently, we are complaining how slack we were since the school reopen. Although we have work to do, the submission date was in 2 weeks time. This make me slow down my working pace. I don't like it this way because we will become lazier and it's really hard for us to start our 'motor'. When major project is thrown to us, that's when we suffer.

Sometimes I wanted to lock all my blog, tumblr or facebook if I can. I don't like to let others read about my stuff. Is is because whenever I'm emotional, I tend to spam lots of stuff. I'm afraid they might get irritated of it. Or even got the wrong idea of what I'm going to say. But sometimes, I really can't keep everything to myself anymore. That's why i blog or post.

There's really these changes aren't it? I really don't know is it just me. Maybe I'm just too sensitive. I really hate this side of me. I wanted to be happy, I wanted to stay positive and I wanted to explain for everything but I realised, I've lose control of it.

These few nights I've been quite emotional that I couldnt stand it anymore. I want to let all these stop here but can I?

I really dont know how to describe the feelings. Maybe it's a mixed feelings. Every words, every hugs, there's a weird emotional coming out from me. I feel like crying.

There's nothing happen but I just felt this way. I"ve tried but I've failed to overcome myself. I tears and I fell asleep last night.

I really need some help here but I couldnt tell anyone about it. Not really cant but I dont want.

I question myself but I can't answer. Nobody can.

Maybe it's time to let everything out, to myself, in my room, under my blanket, alone.