These emotional nights, I cant stand it anymore.

I can't explain what am i brooding about, what am I stress about.

Just like what JX said, ' the feeling of NotGoodEnough!'

Life, Love, Work, School, Future, Friends, Myself etc..

It's filled in my mind that is cant stop brooding about!

I really need to do something to prove that I can do it but it's just the confident i need in order to push myself.!

I need to convince everyone and including myself that I am good.

I dont want to be the one who is always hiding behind someone else anymore.

I dont want others to look down on me.

I know I can do it but what's stopping me?!

Recently, smoking and drinking were stuck in my mind that I really feel like trying. Those are what I hate the most in my life. It's not so much of smoking, just curious what's so good about it that the close ones around me are touching it. For drinking, I'm really tempted. I want to know how I behave when I'm drunk. I want to get high so that I can stop thinking about stuff for that moment. However, I know that these couldnt solve anything that I'm troubled right not. And i know I wont feel good either.

Life is really tough when you got into too much things, when you got older, when you care too much and when you think too much!

Anyway, I really thanks JX for listening to me these few days though he has his own problem too! :)

Needtodosomething!