I cant get myself relax these few days. I so troubled with what I've done and what I've not. Ever since the release of grades for the previous submission, I got demoralized badly! Whenever I went for consultation, Kelly would tell me ' you are there, keep doing'. When you me i'm there, I dont know what to improve but just keep finishing what i should. In the end, what I've just got was a straight b. This shows that my stuff were not really there yet. And now, the refinement, I got not much changes and we there's nothing much i can change because the submission is already ongoing. My concept were not strong, autocad were not detailed and i'm freaking worried for my walkthrough now! Tell me, what can I do to improve! I dont want to just finish what im supposed to! I want an improvement because, B is not what i want. This really will affect my GPA alot.

Yes, the learning process is the most important part of learning. However, what's important to our life is grades! I need good grades, i need a high GPA, I want to go uni and of course a good future.

Right now, I can feel that i'm almost giving up on what i'm doing. But on the other hand, I cant bear to let it go. I'm still holding on. I need to do something to pull up my grades but it's too late. I'm just left with autocad, journal and walk through! As for autocad, Kelly has never care much about our detailing. This make me worried alot . Walkthrough is really stressing me! They just spend a couple of hours teaching us and yet, they just taught us briefly. How can we do it on our own when everything was so brief?!

The last submission I got all B and now, the criteria will definitely be higher. How am I going to score?!!!!!

This really affect me badly recently!

So many days have past, it seems like my body cannot take it soon. I tried so hard to stay awake and the feeling was not good at all. We have got our submission extend but it doesnt mean we have more time. For those who are slower, it benefits them because they will be able to submit a full submission. However, that's not enough. When everybody has the full submission, what we are competing is the quality. And yes, I take this submission seriously. Or I can say I treat all submission seriously. I need to at least maintain my GPA but after this afternoon, I lost all my confident. I got all Bs for my last submission. Though I felt that I didnt do well, I'm still very disappointed. This will drag down my GPA!! What's worse is that, I felt so unfair because of..........

Submission is over and I cant wait for my critique to be over too! Critique on this coming tuesday and I'm all prepared for negative comments. There's nothing in this submission that I'm satisfied with. None! All the work were all rushed out. There isnt any quality work! SIGH!

The whole of last week I only slept 2-3hours per day. On the third day onward, I felt so shag and sleepy but when I decided to take a nap, I couldnt sleep at all. Whenever I took my nap, I will still be thinking and worried that i couldnt finish it on time. Every minute, every hour is so important to me. At the end, I managed to submit a full submission and of course I'm not happy about it. Like I said, nothing could really satisfied me!

Let the past be the past.. I cant wait for t2c to come! But before that, here's our 1 week of critique week.

Our payback for losing so much sleep ^^

However, that 1 week seems so short! The whole of 1 week was packed with activities already! It will be better if there isnt CRS and TOD lesson! :)

Tomorrow I'm going www with angela and gang. egggg-cited much :)))!

So many unwanted stress right now! I got confident in finishing the work I have to do but it's more than that. I want to do well, I want to do more than what I can! At least when I didnt do well, I know I've tried my best!

Today, I felt so tired and moody. Took out all my materials for model making but I got no feel at all! I cannot do it in this state, nothing good will comes out from it!

I feel so bad to spoil your plan right now! I'm really very sorry. I dont know what to do now...

Argh~!!!

Argh!! After hearing about you planning surprises to give me, I suddenly feel so happy and sad! Happy because you actually planned but sad because I couldnt meet you..

Back to blogging? Miss me? I know you guys definitely did! :p

First day of school, everything was still the same! sitting in class, wasting time just to wait for consultation! Have been slacking throughout the whole holiday and nothing was done! I know that I still have time to finish up everything but will I produce something good? Hmm.. everyone's progress was quite fast so right now, I must really start my engine! From the start of this project, everything seems slow to us. All the instructions and stuff were too brief and slow. Have been calculating my GPA since last term. In order to get a 3.8 at the end of year3, I need to get 3.9 and abv! WOW! That impossible for me as I know my limit. I really wonder what I will become when i grow up. Will I be a successful one? Career to me is something very important because that's what you need if you want to lead a good life. And so, here comes studies. Right now I'm still procrastinating, thinking that I can do more tomorrow and sleep early tonight. Can I?

Now, I'm feeling so sick. Have been coughing for the past few days and I'm having a headache right now. My parents keep asking me to drink some cough medicine but I refused. I didnt take my diet into consideration too. SPicy food, heaty stuff, cold drinks and etc. Serve me right for coughing like this? hahaha!

Mothers' day is over and half of my weekly allowance is gone! :(

Wanted to get my mum a present but because of the lizard that is hiding in my room, I didnt got the chance to buy it on sat. Sorry mum!

Lets me just update you with my life recently!

Hmmm.. to me, school has started for 3 weeks but design school hasnt. Although there are some assignments for us, we are still feeling quite slack. My weekends used to be the day I do my work so a chance to rest. But now, my weekends were spent enjoying my life, slacking and finding things to do. Last thursday, our major project has just started but the task is just take and print photos. It's a whole sem project and I'm looking forward to it :):)

Lizard! Oh yes. Friday night, that idiotic lizard dropped down from the ceiling and crawl underneath my bed. I couldnt find it after that. I wasnt afraid of lizards but I felt that it's disgusting and I dont want it to crawl around me when I'm sleeping!! So yea, the only way is to spam insecticide and close the door! My mum said that she will catch it for me the next day. Fortunately, my bro went for canoe camp and I got his room muahahha!

Received the news of the listing for main comm and yes I was posted to the comm I opted! #happy:)

Sat were spent cleaning the entire room and thanks mum for helping. I tidy up all the drawers I have in my room and neatly. BUT THE MAIN THING IS THE LIZARD!! It's no where to be found! I got no idea where can it go to. The worse scenario is that one day when I was digging my bag for something, and I dig out that lizard. OMG! Hmm.. was packing my wardrobe halfway and got tired so I dumped all the unfolded clothes on my bed. Papa wanted to go for shopping because the weather is really killing us! Decided to go marina square for dinner because that is the place we thought that it wasnt crowded. Going out with my parents is really good! Normally if I go out with them without objective, it will just purely window shopping. So yesterday, I targeted at some of the shops first and I lead the way :)! Shopping is always woman's stuff and the guy is always the one paying! Sooooo, yes! My papa is the one paying for both mine and my mum's expenses. He bought nothing! Wanted to buy similar watch with my mum but we decided not to. We only shopped for awhile because our main objective is just dinner. How can I go home without buying anything? HA HA HA! I'm sorry dad but I didnt get to shop with you guys that often! I brought them to topshop! Bought a dress and jacket and spent $100+. opps! My mum likes the dress and I like the jacket!! ;) There's so many restaurant at marina square and we had a hard time deciding. I suggested to dine at HK cafe because I think that suits their likings. I'm right! They signed up a membership card for me as they know that I always visit the restaurant.

Stayed up late because of the election. I shall not say much about it cos I'm not really interested. Everyone was so active at fb and twitter. So am i. Although I stayed up late, i wasnt really watching. Most of the time, my eyes were at my laptop. 5 years later when it's our turn to vote, I'm not interested about who to vote but how much I'm given $.$

We wanted to celebrate mothers' day in the morning but I couldnt wake up :X The time I woke up its already lunch so we decided to wait for my beloved brother to come home from camp. Papa was kinda lazy to travel so we have to think of places nearer for dining. There isnt much restaurant I could say. We ended up at swensens because most of the restaurants were having long queues. My bro and I shared the bills, treating it as a mothers' day gift. Papa wanted to pay but we refused. However, i felt heartache but nehmind~! Its worth it.

Hmm.. i guessed i have to stop here! Papa mama wo ai ni!! :):) my bro.... since I used his bed for these 2 days and he didnt say anything. Mian qiang yi xia bah! ♥